New year & new goals....

Make best of 2008...first I have to ignore the fact that is going to be fking 2008!!!! Time is going very fast.....U see the start of the new year as a time of renewal for us all, fresh beginnings, new opportunities....but for me it will be great if 08 is just like 07 with minor changes. U will see them below.

First my two cents of 2007 ?

1. Family did great, mom health which matters the most in my family improved in 07.
2. I finally understood that I can't beat time, so this year I learnt to take it easy and that there are no right/wrong turns in life, just new paths.
3. I loved deeply once, thought that can't be replicated....I was wrong and its better to have loved and lost than never to have loved deeply at all. The new girl is great.
4. Having a legitimate drunken fun at East-Bank campus....ohhh college life U gotta love it.
5. I would love to travel more than I did this year. 2008 surely must be my year of travel.
6. Being in politics has its down-fall, I hate the social marketing of people so I don't know why I want to be a politician! I'm already stoked on 08 elections....we need to beat Coleman and a Dem :) has to win the white house. PERIOD.
7. Another weird thing about this year, ...I'm being asked important questions and even many that I don't really know personally that well at work or at school seem to share their lives with me like I have the magic stick.....weird...may be I'm getting old.....
8. I judged myself hard in 07.
9. I Continued to learn...ohhh how I love to learn everyday!
10. The sad part, we have lost close family friend.

Resolution 08

1. Have sex with every girl in my psych class....all of them, the new freshman they would be the easiest ones, the old lost mothers now going back to college after years of no action, two graduate TAs, few that have been in the block, I better start before semster starts U know what they say about psych courses and women ...TAs here I come.
2. Get more sleep.....who doesn't!
3. Go to Indonesia in the summer and enjoy four months of conservation work..plus go to Madrid in Aug. for the wedding of my aunt.
4. I enjoy art shows which I haven't seen one lately and I need to explore more art houses around the Twin-Cites and also join an art community/club.
5. I'm coke addict, I need to start drinking at least 4 glasses of water.
6. Work hard on my political name, get face time with the party members and start volunteering with the DFLers and campaign more with them.
7. Stop making excuses for not exercising more before I travel in the summer.
8. Spend less time at the college and more time at the hospital....
9. Understand more on my dreams, hopes and my biggest obstacles of trying to out-do time. The 24 hours in a day is given equally to all of us.
10. Ignore the first resolution of 08...joke.

If there is peace, there will be happiness...

ONE.

Freaking Friday...yeeeeeesssss.

Yesterday I was feeling kind of nostalgic about this ending year, life is truly how U make it to be.

We all dream, hope, admire, be in a cliche, have sh*ty days & great days, fail & pass, fall in-love & f*ck around, be here, be there, be no where. We dance to lovely tunes, dance with others, dance alone in shower, understand heartbreak, cry things lost & laugh about things gained, have purpose in life, find god & the lovely seas, we fear 4 them & fear for us, find happiness, find despair & find fearing the unkown. We worry about weight & others worry finding things to eat, feel loss & feel for other's loss, we walk tall & walk weak, we sing & songs known to us, we have fun & other days none, we never know if there’s just never enough & feel we should/could have a lot of that, we don't have & we have plenty, we lack this & lack nothing, the greats think they're nothing & the farts thinks they all, we worry things we aren't & ask why not! We chase money, work, babies, four bed-room with two garages, we stuck at traffic & fly over highways of greatest nation on earth, we were sad last year, sad yesterday & sad at this moment, we feel hurt & feel other's love, we are loved & love, we say goodbye to loved ones & say hello to new born, we dream dreams of our fathers & dreams of our childhood, we fight the good fight for self and others, we say thanks and we are thanked.

In other words, don't ever think your a lone, we all feel the same and though we are many, we are one. What matters is never to give up, NEVER.

Live your life.

Just another crazy week...

First, I want to start with the news that the CIA has destroyed tapes that could have been used in courts or by the Congress. This just shows how far we have gone to hell & rats like Osama is taking our freedoms, rule of law and our way of doing things on the right way...What happened to REASON? Or not getting rid of government property that isn't the property of the individual destroying it? Uhhh this is such a crime, that even middle school teen in American history course will know is NO NO. This is another black-eye for this government and I wait to see what my party in the congresss and the national media do about this. This is very serious action taken by executive branch of government without the knowledge and the oversight by the other two branches of government. One day there will be a non-Republican government....surely in 08....what would many sh*t-heads in the rightwing nuts; who support torture and other methods that even the CIA deamed to not show it, 'cause it feared it will get to YOUTUBE is amazing....what will they do when that non-Republican government does the same? Remember Clinton and his licking some p*ssy...what that get him? Now we have government destroying property of the PEOPLE. Yes, these destroyed tapes were the property of the citizens of this country...and now gone for ever. This is f*cking crazy.

Three more weeks of school-fall term left....I have few finals and two major papers and I'm done.....I will have one month off from school and work....my HCMC work is clinical work which goes with two of my courses....I don't really know what I will be doing....May be travel (NYTimes just came-out with the best places to see in 08) and few of them look great.....As I said, I will not plan things as usual. Right now, I live a life that has no equal, may time isn't spent on worrying on what I don't have or can't get but what I have and isn't using them. I have a lot to be thankful in 07 and change is always good when U realize your not enjoying or not living the way you wanted to. Today is my life, tomorrow may never come.

Thinking F*cking 2 Much.....

Please, please, please quit if U smoke and if U don't stay away from it.

Ooh man, I wished U could be there, with me in that lab...dissecting the body of a man who have smoked 40 yrs of his 53 years in life. Man was that an experience! I usually get work on one cadaver a month, men and women who donated their bodies for medical training and provide an important place for us to produce and teach future medical students on human biology. The man had a laterally another skin on top of each internal organ of his body...this skin was a thick-dura like skin that was f*cking black/brownish and had some red dots on them..eewwwww. Human organs need to breath, flex as your loungs and heart do...but skin like that death is waiting few doors down....now I really and first person account know why lung cancer is the most serious medical problems out there. Death is certain.

Lately life has been like a sailing a boat in the middle of the 17th century N the fucking pacific ocean. Things come and go, still standing to tell it and enjoy some and hate some. Lately I have these weird moments, where I feel like I should freaking just leave college, or work, or Minnesota and all the dreams of my past. Nothing is more special and important to me right now than being myself, not f*cking following a f*cking time-table...do this, do that, and do those. college is making us slaves to money, future that we can never know even if tomorrow may come.....Lately, I'm hating plannning on things with passion.

We humans are not supposed to think this much, thinking to much is f*cking called mental illness. I can't stop thinking about why be in college, where I can move to Europe N work for my Dad and find a job while I enjoy it. Four years of college have already gave me a good education where I could have made money without thinking on grad. school. What happened to my planned conservation work in this summer to Indonesia -it was f*cked-up by me getting a new job at one of the largest hospitals(HCMC) which was said it will help me create connections with who's who in medical research around the twin-cities. What about my plans on political life with the DFL? It didn't happen yet & I don't have the time for it now...sh*t I even don't have the time to f*cking wear my snow shoes in this morning, when it snowed like we're living in Siberia....late, late, run, run, be there, be here, it all seems my rpm is never going to slow-down. I really am thinking hard about this and may just for once in my younger life having a total re-tool of my past dreams that are there, but not as much enjoyable as I thought I would. I love my life too much to waste thinking 2 f*cking much about my future educational goals.